Thursday, January 31, 2013

Here goes my pedometer results. I borrowed this from a friend and omg I love it! Here is just a taste of what I have done today :)

So... What do you think :)

Workout Tip Starts Today!

That is right. I am starting today with 1 fitness tip a day for 30 days:)

Tip one: Awesome music!

You read that right. Put on some awesome music that has a beat to it and watch what happens. If it is a beat you like, you will catch yourself moving to the beat even while sitting. Guess what, your burning calories! Especially if you engage your abs as you are moving to the beat. I actually sit in a rocking chair and rock to the beat as I am listening to the beats. Today I have put together an awesome workout playlist to make you move in your seat. All of them are by women and are motivational for any situation you are in. From losing weight to personal issues. All will keep you moving and without even thinking about it, you will be moving and burning cals :)

I would recommend getting something like Spotify. It is free and lots of great music on it!

Great cd to get is 100 #1 Workout HITS! Vol.2

It has songs like:
  • Listen to your heart
  • Since you been gone
  • If I were a boy
  • Single Ladies
  • Fire Burning
And many many more!

Ugg blogger being a major pain!

If you try to post a reply and it doesn't let you, You can reach me at or aphaliciousbliss@facebook.  I am trying to figure out why it won't let people reply!


Now that I am getting followers, I will do 10 sit ups daily for every follower I get from now till 2-7-13 :) Come on guys! Put my tush to work :)  Work -out that is ;)

Crazy Idea!

Ok guys I have an awesomely Awesome Idea! I am thinking of setting up a work out area where we all can swap work out clothes and other work out things like video's and such and give good tips on some awesome work outs clothes and such! What do you guys think? DO you think it will be a good idea? If so let me know and I will set up a forum for all of us to go to and say what we have to trade and what we need :) What a great way to help each other out! I hope soon I will have the little bit I do have to offer as I have increased my workouts today to an hr and going to try to stick with an hr work out for now till I can up it to 1.5 then 2+. SO give me your impute. I would LOVE to get it set up if you all like!


I know I have been slacking on my posts but I have had net issues and for some reason it wouldn't let me log into here. BUT here I am and back in force! Who wants to help me keep up with my weight loss?  Well here we go on my way to under 200 lbs by June 1st!


Sunday, January 27, 2013

Yep thanks to the awesome people over at MPG, I have the pleasure of reviewing one one awesome yoga mat! This Yoga Mat is thick and with me being use to working out on the floor, this is wonderful! It is black on one side and the other is a beautiful light blue. Which you guys know me I LOVE blue! Exp. baby blue like this mat has. I found myself pushing myself even harder than I was before. I found myself saying, "I Can't do this.... What am I saying of course I can do it! Get your big butt in gear and get to working" I pushed an extra 5 min till I just couldn't anymore :) I love this mat! It is wonderful! I really do recommend you getting one of these! I have seen short Yoga mats that you spend half of your workout off the mat. Not with this one! It is a full length mat! Thank You so much MPG for giving me the opportunity to use this wonderful Product of yours! If you would LOVE to get one of these awesome mats for yourself for $47, make sure to visit MPG by clicking the Top Picture! Trust me, You WILL NOT be disappointed!

Textured fitness/yoga mat with two-toned color design and debossed MPG logo.
  • Eco friendly biodegradable, recyclable, non-leaching, emission free TPE plastic
  • Dual texture for comfort and grip
  • Dimensions: 24” x 68”
  • 6 mm thick

XOXO Pink Review!!

That is right! I am doing a pink review! I love pink and blue and when I came across this awesome Racer back bra that of course is hot pink! To add to it... It was $3.. Hey Ho! YAY! I couldn't pass the deal up. I got it at Ross! But it is comfortable and I admit... I had to do a jump test in the dressing room ;) The girls didn't pop out or hurt so it was a winning PLUS!

I needed to get use to it as I am not use to the Racer Back between my shoulder-blades. But after about an hr of wearing it and a little bit more of a workout...... I am in love with this. The material on the girls are a little thin and it does keep rolling a bit under the arms but for the most part it is comfy.

It is a little smaller than the normal bra's I have been wearing so that means I have lost some of the back boobs. Which makes me want to work out even more to lose even more weight :)

Now to see if I can find an outfit I can actually wear for the same bargain or better!

Mud Run and Rant!

Friday, January 25, 2013

Ok guys I am adding LOTS of pink in this post cause I have some awesome news! I got the ok to do the Dallas Texas Pretty Dirty 5k Run/Walk!!!! Yay it is awesome news!!! I am going to hold him to it on letting me go! I am not doing it to win it but I am doing it to finish it! So I can tell myself  and my children " I did it. I completed a 5k and I will do whatever  it takes to make sure me and my family are healthy and would love to do it again" I am working to a goal of doing 5, 5k's in 5 years and a healthier me buy this time next year. 
Click sticker to visit the sight!

Now the hard part.... Costumes! I have read about the run that they also award for the most creative costumes. Well, I would LOVE to win that! I know it is hard with hubs not being 100% on board with it and me going to have to look for free clothes to wear for it but whatever I get, I can try to add to it to make it Fabtastic!!! After talking to a few who have done this run before, I know I need to STAY AWAY FROM COTTON!!! SO I am looking for some shorts or capris with a wicking top for me to wear. I was thinking also of wearing pink but I really am not picky as I will wear what I can get! Like my mom says.. beggars can't be choosers. 

I would absolutely LOVE to get down and dirty in this run. I mean I am a country girl so mud is second nature to me. It, to me Is better than one of those expensive mud baths and facials that people pay much money on. Shoot, It is free and if it was bad for you, I would be dead already lol.  

Today was an awesome day! I walked to the school and back to get my kids with my son on my back. As we walked I would bounce up and down to the bunny hop dance lol. I bet I looked goofy but he loved it! He would even go " GO MOMMY GO, GO MOMMY GO!!!" It made me want to do more :) My husband n the other hand.... Not so much. He tried to say this afternoon that he don't think I should go to the run due to the fact that I can't take the kids with me on the run. SO one of the girls that wants to go with me, and will drive me up their, volunteered her husband to watch my kids. Then he was like, "IF I pay this fee, I wont be able to buy you anything to wear for it. I also won't be able to give you any money to buy anything while you are up their" So it seems he is trying to talk me out of doing it! I am not gonna let that stop me. I am going to look around and try to find any that someone is giving away or IF I have to, I will wear cotton and jeans if I have to. I will not let him make me feel horrible for trying to do something good for me! It is time for me to hold my head up high through the storm ahead and tred on!

The 2 outer pictures are me now and where I wanna be in the end!

 It does the body Great!

Muti vitamin help!!

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Ok First off, I have a really high iron level so I was told to get a multivitamin that has no iron in it . Levels are norm around 19.  I use to take women's one a day active matabolism with no issue but due to my iron levels I was told to stop :( I have tried prenatals, I have tried centrum and even the equate vitamin all of them make me throw up. I take them with food so I shouldn't be throwing up. Now I am trying the Alive! women's 50+ and it still makes me throw up. I can hold down the fish oils perfectly but when it comes to the multivitamins.... my body isn't having it :( Even the flinstones make me throw up. Can someone please HELP!

Tuesday's semi Rest day!

Yesterday was soo hard to rest. I mean I wanted to get up and go! But I fought the urge and made myself rest. Who knew how bad I really needed it after the week I have had lol. I did have to go get my kids from school so I did have to go do that which was walking for 20 min pretty fast and burned 129 calories. Along with I went outside and played soccer with my kids for 10 min and was like eek it is suppose to be my rest day so Sat down and cheered them on as they played! lol


Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Fiber
Kashi Go Lean Crunch Cereal - Toasted Berry Crumble, 3/4 Cup 180 35 4 9 8
Dannon Light and Fit - Greek Twice Protein Blueberry Yogurt, 5.3 OZ 80 9 0 12 0
Add Food 260 44 4 21 8
Starkist - Chunk Light Tuna In Water, 2 oz, drained 50 1 1 10 1
Keebler Butter Crisp Cracker - Toasteds, 5 crackers 80 10 4 1 1
Add Food 130 11 5 11 2
Classico - Spagetti Sauce, 1/2 cup 50 9 1 2 1
Beef - Cooked Perfect - Italian Style Meat Balls, 3 meatballs 250 5 19 14 1
Great Value - Elbow Macaroni Noodles, 1 cup 420 82 2 14 4
Velvita - Cheese, 1 oz 60 4 3 5 0
Add Food 780 100 25 35 6
Snack 1
Keebler Butter Crisp Cracker - Toasteds, 10 crackers 160 20 8 1 1
Add Food 160 20 8 1 1
snack 2
Carrots - Raw, 300 g 123 29 1 3 8
Add Food 123 29 1 3 8
Totals 1,453 204 43 71 25                   

Mondays Messed up Intake :(

Thats right. I messed up today on my intake. I was too buisy to even think about eating. so my caloric intake is in the 800's. :(

Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Fiber
Eggs - Hard-boiled (whole egg), 2 large 155 1 11 13 0
Add Food 155 1 11 13 0
Eggs - Hard-boiled (whole egg), 2 large 155 1 11 13 0
Broccoli - Raw, 0.5 cup, chopped 15 3 0 1 1
Great Value - Mild Finely Shredded Low Fat Cheddar Cheese, 1/3 cup 90 0 6 8 0
Mushrooms - Raw, 0.25 cup pieces 4 1 0 1 0
Carrots - Raw, 100 g 41 10 0 1 3
Spinach - Raw, 2 cup 14 2 0 2 1
Add Food 319 17 17 26 5
Spinach - Raw, 2 cup 14 2 0 2 1
Mushrooms - Raw, 0.5 cup pieces 8 1 0 1 0
Chicken - Breast, meat only, cooked, roasted, 1 cup, chopped or diced 231 0 5 43 0
Orange Bell Peper - Orange Bell Peper, 0.25 cup 9 3 0 1 1
Red Bell Pepper - Red Bell Pepper, 0.5 container (0.5 pepper ea.) 9 2 0 0 1
Vegetables - Yellow Bell Peppers , 1/4 cup 5 1 0 1 1
Newman's Own Salad Dressing - Balsamic Vinigarette, 2 Tblsp 90 3 9 0 0
Crutons - Texas Toast Garlic&Butter Crutons , 2 tbs 35 4 2 1 0
Add Food 401 16 16 49 4

Totals 875 34 44 88 9

Mondays Start up!

Today not only did I paint the room by myself, I took the kids to the park! Where we played soccer, and chase and walked around the whole park's walking trail! Woop Woop :)

It took me 6 hrs on the girls room room due to it taking 3 coats plus all the patch work and such but I did it and boy was I tired ! I burned 2127 calories. I fell asleep as soon as my bottom touched the couch lol. SO I figured Wed... would be a good day to rest! Well semi rest as I had to walk to go get the girls from school. Will post pics soon of the park :)

Cardiovascular Minutes Calories Burned
Walking, 3.0 mph, mod. pace, walking dog 60 386
Running (jogging), 5 mph (12 min mile) 5 78
Soccer, casual, general 25 341

Sundays buisy day :)

Ok today I did more than work out. I painted :) it was a blast and I felt it and still feel it lol.

The painting I did for 4 hours. Using the step ladder and all. For a grand total of..... 1418 calories burned!! Then my workout!

Cardiovascular Minutes Calories Burned
Walking, 3.0 mph, mod. pace, walking dog    20           129
Rope jumping, slow     5             78


Sundays food

Sorry for the delay but here is the sunday food intake!

Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Fiber
Kashi Go Lean Crunch Cereal - Toasted Berry Crumble, 3/4 Cup 180 35 4 9 8
Dannon Light and Fit - Greek Twice Protein Blueberry Yogurt, 5.3 OZ 80 9 0 12 0
Add Food 260 44 4 21 8
Broccoli - Raw, 0.5 cup, chopped 15 3 0 1 1
Celery - Raw, 1 stalk, small (5" long) 2 1 0 0 0
Great Value - Mild Finely Shredded Low Fat Cheddar Cheese, 1/3 cup 90 0 6 8 0
Spinach - Raw, 1 cup 7 1 0 1 1
Carrots - Raw, 1 medium 25 6 0 1 2
Mushrooms - Raw, 0.25 cup pieces 4 1 0 1 0
Add Food 143 12 6 12 4
Homemade Stir Fry - Chicken, Zucchini, Squash, Onions, 1 cup 235 20 6 28 0
Ore-Ida - Tator Tots, 5.4 pieces 96 12 5 1 1
Add Food 331 32 11 29 1
Snack 1
Dannon Light and Fit - Greek Twice Protein Blueberry Yogurt, 5.3 OZ 80 9 0 12 0
Good Humor - Premium Sundae Cone, 1 cone 240 29 12 4 1
Add Food 320 38 12 16 1
snack 2
Dannon Light and Fit Notfat - Greek 2xprotein Pineapple Yogurt, 1 container 80 8 0 12 0
Add Food 80 8 0 12 0
Totals 1,134 134 33 90 14                        

Sorry for the 2 day delay

 I will get those out and posted by the end f the day (sun and monday workout and intake) Today I am finishing up the house and finishing painting then I have to walk to the school to get the kids then come home and finish cleaning lol. I plan to throw in a little bit of a workout in their then tomorrow... due to being so wore out of over a week of non stop workout. I am going to have a rest and recoup day :) Then back onto the weight loss journey for me :) It seems so hard to have a rest day cause I am so excited and motivated to lose weight yet I know I need to or I will end up plateauing. EEK

SO As you know my goal is to lose 100 lbs by this time next year. I am doing all kinds of research to help me lose the weight. Like what are the best foods to eat, and what to stay away from. I know I may eat too little cals but I promise I am trying. I need to lose the weight for my health and by golly I will. My kids will learn the value of eating healthy and not playing video games or in front of the TV all day. :)

This is perfect weather to be outside in the park. A nice 68 outside and sunny. Me and the kids are going to be outside most of the afternoon. Well in between cleaning lol. 

My secret sweet that I love to eat when I am wanting something sweet is my Greek yogurt. I mean I absolutely LOVE it. It has lots of protein in it and is yummy. My favorite is the strawberry and cherry.  Well off to do my rest day :) Hugs everyone

Wacky Saterday Food Count!

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Ok today I worked out extra hard so I could reward myself tonight with sweet potato fries :) Well here I go... And todays intake is......~Drum Roll~

Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein Fiber
Kashi Go Lean Oatmeal Honey & Cinnamon - Oat Meal, 40 g 150 26 2 8 5
Dannon Light and Fit - Greek Twice Protein Blueberry Yogurt, 5.3 OZ 80 9 0 12 0
Strawberries - Raw, 1 medium (1-1/4" dia) 4 1 0 0 0

Great Value - Mild Finely Shredded Low Fat Cheddar Cheese, 1/3 cup 90 0 6 8 0
Wolf Brand - Chili Mild No Beans, 1 cup 400 20 28 19 5

Chicken Breast - Chicken Breast Meat Only, Roasted, 1 oz 46 0 1 9 0
Great Value - Sharp Finely Shredded Cheddar Cheese, 1/3 cup 110 1 9 7 0
Outback Steakhouse - Sweet Potato Fries, 1 side (4 oz.) 445 57 23 3 6
Pork - Cured, bacon, cooked, pan-fried, 0.5 slice cooked 21 0 2 2 0
Veg - Mushroom, 1/8 cup 1 0 0 0 0

Snack 1
Jif - Creamy Peanut Butter, 1 Tbsp - 32g 95 4 8 4 1
Nature's Own - 100% Whole Wheat Sandwich Rounds, 1 Roll 100 20 1 5 5

snack 2
Strawberries - Raw, 2.5 medium (1-1/4" dia) 10 2 0 0 1

Totals 1,552 140 80 77 23

Wacky Saterday workout so Far!

That's right I am about to go scrub my floors for an hr and with that being done........ Here is my workout so far!!!!!   ****744 cals**** I am bout to not only scrub my floor but now after looking at it... I need to rearrange too lol! Had to stop early due to company :( oh well I get to paint 2 rooms tomorrow along with cleaning so I will get this house back to mommy perfect soon :) At least I got the table and the couch moved.

Cardiovascular Minutes Calories Burned
Wii Fit exercise (advanced or high intensity) 20 137
Wii Fit Super Hula Hoop 30 152
Wii Fit Rhythm Boxing 20 113
Wii Fit Free Run 5 39
Wii Fit Advanced Step 25 127
Cleaning, heavy, vigorous effort 30 176

Friday Intake

Friday, January 18, 2013

I found myself scrambling to get the calories in I needed for today so I had an ice cream cone. :(

Os Of right now (10.45) I have drunk  67.6 oz of water :D

Well here goes!

Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein
Jif - Creamy Peanut Butter, 1 Tbsp - 32g 95 4 8 4
Nature's Own - 100% Whole Wheat Bread, 2 slice 100 20 2 8
Add Food 195 24 10 12
Generic - Organic Spinach Leaves, 3 ounces uncooked 20 3 0 2
Starkist - Chunk Light Tuna In Water, 2 oz, drained 50 1 1 10
Mission Tortillia - Grande Spinach Tortillia, 1 tortillia 210 34 5 6
Carrots - Raw, 1 medium 25 6 0 1
Add Food 305 44 6 19
Lettuce - Iceberg (includes crisphead types), raw, 1 cup shredded 10 2 0 1
Broccoli - Raw, 0.5 cup, chopped 15 3 0 1
Celery - Raw, 1 stalk, small (5" long) 2 1 0 0
Generic - Organic Spinach Leaves, 3 ounces uncooked 20 3 0 2
Carrots - Raw, 1 medium 25 6 0 1
Generic - Hard Boild Egg, 4 large 280 4 18 24
Add Food 352 19 18 29
Dannon Light & Fit - Greek Twice Proetin - Strawberry Nonfat Yogurt, 1 container 5.3oz 80 8 0 12
Fruit - Orange, 1.5 Small 93 23 0 2
Strawberries - Raw, 1 cup, sliced 53 13 0 1
Good Humor - Premium Sundae Cone, 1 cone 240 29 12 4
Add Food 466 73 12 19
Totals 1,318 160 46 79

Thursday workout!

I think I need to step up my game a bit :) 

Cardiovascular Minutes Calories Burned
Step-ups, vigorous     15           427
Walking, 3.0 mph, mod. pace, walking dog     20           129
Rope jumping, moderate, general       4             78   

Thursday Intake

I know I gave in to a friend. They wanted baked tator tots with chili and cheese.  I know I shouldn't have eaten them but It is done and I am learning :)

Breakfast Calories Carbs Fat Protein
Water - Municipal, 2 cup (8 fl oz) 0 0 0 0
Kashi Go Lean Crunch Cereal - Toasted Berry Crumble, 3/4 Cup 180 35 4 9
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 1 cup 86 12 0 8
Total 266 47 4 17
Mission Tortillia - Grande Spinach Tortillia, 1 tortillia 210 34 5 6
Starkist - Chunk Light Tuna In Water, 2 oz, drained 50 1 1 10
Generic - Organic Spinach Leaves, 3 ounces uncooked 20 3 0 2
Broccoli - Raw, 0.5 cup, chopped 15 3 0 1
Total 295 41 6 19
Tator Tots, Ore-Ida - Baked Tator Tots, 16 pieces 260 34 12 4
Generic - Chili, 1 cup 275 33 7 19
Great Value - Mild Finely Shredded Low Fat Cheddar Cheese, 1/3 cup 90 0 6 8
625 67 25 31
Fisher Chef's Naturals - Chopped Walnuts (Net Carbs), 0.25 Cup 180 2 18 4
Broccoli - Raw, 0.5 cup, chopped 15 3 0 1
Water - Municipal, 6 cup (8 fl oz) 0 0 0 0
195 5 18 5
Totals 1,381 160 53 72

First Challenge #winterbootcamp

Thursday, January 17, 2013

That is right, I am joining a challenge. it is a BigGals #winterbootcamp Challenge where you have to work out 30 min a day. No matter what the workout is. So I thought it would be an awesome way to start in on challenges and work my way to more :) I am really looking forward to completing My first challenge.

uug :(

Please remind me to never eat another protein bar again. I had been doing so good and I had one protein bar yesterday after my workout and I am still regretting it now. My stomach hurts and I can't stay out of the bathroom. Are protein bars bad for you? If not, why would it do this? Uggg :(

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Feeling and Emotions of a Weightloss journey.

I know you are expecting me to say how hard it is to eat a low cal diet and such. Not at all! After examining what I eat on a daily basis, I have noticed one key point. I am not eating enough. So by body is in starvation mode. Before I started eating healthier, I was eating lots of bread and lots of harmful junk. Like chips, pizza, burgers, donuts, danishes, ect. None of with are healthy and none of which was helping my body. Now that I am eating right, replaced sugar with agave nectar, and work out daily, I am struggling to even get the daily calories I need. I mean yesterday it took me eating a protein bar to even get close to it and it made me sick. I am still feeling the stomach issues from it. My goal has been to be under 200 lbs by my 27th birthday in July. I have a long way to go. Yet I still am gaining and I still feel like I am going to run to the bathroom and throw up from eating to much. Why? I honestly didn't get how hard it can be to actually get 1200-1500 cals till now. I have never really drank much water. Even when I was in tennis. I was always drinking gator-aid with about 5 bottles of water a day. Still kinda more than I drink now. I know I need to drink more water but this water here makes me puke when I drink it. It is like drinking pool water.

 Today's market makes it even harder for lower to middle class Citizens to even lose weight anymore. It is cheaper to go to McDonald's or Burger King to get you a burger than it is to get a meal at a health food store or subway. When you go to Walmart, it is like they are promoting the chips, and the cakes, and the quick easy meals that are loaded with unhealthy things and the healthy items, are tucked away to the point you really have to look to find it. Yes they have a fresh fruit and veggie department but it is still cheaper to go to McDonald's that is in Walmart than it is to even get a salad or salad fixings. I mean why? You can get a Double cheese burger, fries, and a soda for less than $5 while JUST a salad, is $4-$6. That is not counting anything to drink with it. Then you are spending near $10 just to get a balanced meal. Now tell me, honestly, if you were a low income family who had to budget EVERYTHING, what would you choose? A burger meal remade and ready to go for $5 or a salad and a bottle water with an orange for $10. The food industries want us all to be fat. Don't you think with Obama Making this health care Bill, don't you think it would be a whole lot more cost officiant to help make healthy food and gym memberships more affordable to people that way they won't need that much of a health bill?

 I admit, I am in the lower class and I can't go to walmart and buy a healthy meal plan to last a week without spending $100-$200. It is crazy. Yet I can walk out with a buggy FULL of things that will keep me fat and sick to last a month for cheaper. Am I the only one who see the problem in this? Oh and don't get me started on the gym memberships, and the healthy drinks, and the vitamins which would break anyone's pocketbook. People wonder why I don't take a multivitamin. I was till I had to switch to the generic version due to the cost raising. Now, I throw up EVERY TIME I take it. I have tried taking it before I eat, while I eat, and after I eat. Nothing helps. I can't afford to go out and buy the fish oil, and the probiotics, and the vitamin's and Chi seeds and the aloe, ect. All of which would cost you at least $100 a month to have. Now tell me, for someone who lives month by month and struggles to pay bills and keep clothes on the backs of their kids and family, who has only 1 car as their transportation or even none at all, that have to walk to get to the store or the food bank or such, is it really helping people by offering medical while basically forcing the unhealthy foods down their throat of people who can't afford to get healthy or would you think it would be in the best interest of the public to offer low cost or even free ways to eat healthy and get fit. Like a gym that is designed for those under a certain income bracket. Of course they won't. As is a lot of us lower class are looked down upon and told how we need to suck it up and work more while as is we are working our fingers to the bone on little pay while some don't even have to really lift a finger and get high triple digit incomes.  I know I will get bashed about this post but if you stop and think about it, I mean really think about it, It is only logic.

 I was about to really lose hope, I was working out and determined to lose weight and trying to ignore all the laughing and the "I am better than you" I have been getting when I have started. That was till I stumbled across a website and then a Facebook page. It seemed that all this weight and stress was lifted a bit off of my shoulders after only 3 e-mails from Laura, one of the ladies who run the site. She gave me encouragement, told me I was doing a good job and made me feel like I was actually worth something again. I found myself last night pushing through the pain and burn of a workout which before I would have given up. I find myself pushing harder, doing more, and focused on eating right. Then she gave my name and email along with my story to a few of her "ambassadors" of the site. Never before have I EVER had this much support in anything I do.  I have had one girl named Stephani help me before when I was about to completely call it all quits. Who talked me out of doingg something I would regret but it still felt like due to my financial situations, I was hitting an unclimbable brick wall at every turn. I was running through this endless Labyrinth. Like the childhood movie with David Bowie about the Labyrinth and the Goblin King. Except, I couldn't even make it out of the first ring. Thanks to the awesome ladies at , I am finding myself pushing more and feeling more alive when I would normally be hiding under the covers crying.

 I have been use to people looking at me and calling me a whale, and disgusting, and worthless. All they would see was this 260 lbs size 26-28 woman with a 3 kids at her side and judge me without ever even knowing me. They would never stop to say hi. Or to even try to get to know me.  They just saw how I looked and thought they knew everything. They didn't know about any of the abuse I encountered when I was growing up. None of the abuse and pain I had been going through. No, they only saw me on the outside. For someone who had grown up feeling that I was useless and worthless and experiences that people can only have nightmares about or see in some horror film. Who was pushing through the pain and trying to hold my head up and smile. No one knew and those who really did, didn't care. To add to even more stress, me and 2 of my kids have been sick with the flu for nearly 2 weeks. Some days it was so bad, I couldn't even pull myself out of bed. Me and the 2 would curl up in my bed and rest. When I would get out of bed, everything hurt. From walking on the floor, to even going to the restroom made me hurt. SO I wasn't able to clean my house. Now that I am getting better, my house is trashed. The kids bedding was a mess, clothes piled everywhere dirty, sink full of dishes, ect. So now not only am I working out but I am also cleaning my whole house by myself and taking care of my 3 kids. Yeah I know I am like in super mom mode!

   Now, I am determined to make sure my children don't ever go through anything I have had to experience and for them to grow up knowing how it feels to not have a care in the world and to be happy and healthy. Even though with income, it does make it hard, BUT, I will keep my head high and I will lose 130 lbs and be healthy. I will not let the past determine my future and hold me in one place. It is time for me to get off my rear and face all this fat head on kicking and punching it all away to a healthy me and for my children, a healthy life.

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